As far as I can remember, I’ve always had a somewhat obsessive organised streak within me. I guess it started with studying at school in the 90’s. Then ofcourse the TV series Friends was aired in the UK and Monica became my idol; the queen of being organised.
When I left home and bought my first flat, I didn’t care that you could barely swing a cat in it. It was mine, my own space and I treasured it. My job in marketing required list upon list and was/is very deadline orientated. After putting a day in at work, I would come home and not allow myself to sit down until I had cleaned the place from top to bottom (which didn’t take long at all!).
Back then, I only had myself to cater and care for. It was very easy to be on top of everything at home and at work. I have never felt so completely clear minded and on my A game since!
When I moved in with my now husband, it took me a while to get into my groove. I found it incredibly frustrating when things weren’t exactly where I left them, or rooms weren’t as I’d left them. It was a bitter pill to swallow and the affect it had on how I felt day to day was very showing. But at this point, it was still manageable.
Fast forward to now. A busy working mother and lifestyle blogger, I don’t have much spare time. I also have a little 2 year old moving things about and an even bigger place to clean. To say the room doesn’t look the same as I’d left it is a complete understatement. It can at times look like a bomb has hit it!
My mind is never settled or clear now. I doubt any mothers is! It now overspills and I feel constantly defeated when it comes to home organisation and cleanliness. I’ve had to become accepting of how things are and focus on what is realistic to our family situation. I want to make sure I enjoy life and not spent it entirely settling my mind.
That being said, I usually take haven in the tidiest room in the house. I also feel like I’ve won a war when I organise another space in our lives, such as drawer organising and the under the stairs toy cupboard. Like I’ve regained a little control back.
I may well be pushing water uphill, but I will feel in control again.
So join me in my quest as I organise more spaces around the home this year and get ever closer to regaining my Monica crown.